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"This is Jean. I can't answer right now. Leave a message and I'll get back to you."
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"This is Jean. I can't answer right now. Leave a message and I'll get back to you."
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"This is Jean. I can't answer right now. Leave a message and I'll get back to you."
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The irony. It hurts us.]no subject
You're just saying that to make me feel better.
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[Which is entirely true.]
I know it's...complicated. And he has his reasons for feeling the way he does, how justifiable they may or may not be. No one is particularly wrong. But if you're looking for forgiveness, Jean, you may want to start with forgiving yourself.
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Her smile falls away as she remembers that. And one of the memories of older Charles that still haunts her. The one she got from Laura. Of the night saw him die in her time.
This was, without a doubt, the most perfect night I've had in a very long time. And I don't deserve it, do I?
She rubs her eyes and swallows hard. ]
I know.
goodbye planet goodbye
[He knows there's something she's not saying. He may not be able to hear it, sense it, but that weight on her shoulders is so damned apparent that it hurts. He's been well aware for some time now that teenagers simply...don't always want to talk about everything, and he wants to respect that. But the way she keeps pushing away gives him a sense that the worry is more founded than all of that.
There's no sense in forcing it--he'd never--but it remains just as concerning now as it had when they'd first reunited.]
You're sure you're alright?
flings self into the sun
Yeah, I just--the past few weeks have been rough, you know? A lot to deal with. You know it can be for me.
[ Because it took her a long time to deal with other people's emotions as well as her own. And even now, when she's feeling a lot herself, it will be hard to keep herself guarded from others. It happened when she first arrived on the ship all those months ago. ]
You're not overbearing.
[ A long beat, closing her eyes. ]
I've missed you.
he's the worst i'm sorry
[And he does. He's well-acquainted with the unique Hell that is experiencing so many more lives than one's own. He would be the first to admit it as bias, but he still understands this level of telepathy as one of the harsher psychological burdens when it comes to the manifestation of their varied mutations. It isn't to say that being mutated at all doesn't carry its own problems, or that more obvious, physical mutations don't present their own unique set of terrible problems.
But he knows what it's like to not be able to shut this out. To have to hear every opinion that mental illnesses do well enough on their own to exacerbate in their doubt. Invisible as it may be, to understand all of that pain, and doubt, and all of those secrets that people rarely speak aloud (right down to all of those vitriolic thoughts slung as though they might have been actually spoken) is as much as curse as any other mutation with a notable downside.
Charles will give her a pass on that, though he knows it would be just as easy to give that explanation as an excuse. If Peter has his reasons for his anger, she undoubtedly has her own for her guarding. So, it may be a pass, but it isn't forgotten by any means.]
Oh, now you're just saying that to make me feel better. [He'll just bring that right back around, down to a similar laugh.] But I will remember you said that.